November 24 , 2010

Wow it has been so long since I have written anything! And my whole life has changed! I really need to start being more careful about how I act. Because now at my age, everything is getting judged. Every word and every move. Im going to let everyone know this and it's the last time I'm ever going to say it again... Im a lesbian. And I just recently realized that. im going throught a lot of judgement from a lot of people. Includung my parents and Im not even allowed to tell my grandparents or aunts or uncles or anything. It's on the big DL. Mostly cuz my parents think I am doing it for attention or something. I think it's stupid they would even think something like that!

Well i've had a total of two girlfriends in the last month that I ahve been out and I love them both to death and am trying to win one of them back. Jenny.. I love Rozanna too but I dont think she likes me and I dont think Jenny likes me as much either but Jenny likes Roz and Roz likes Jenny and they both well yeah and urgh >.< anyways girls are deffinitely more complicated than guys :P It isn't very fun except for those moments where you think ur in love...those are the best ever (: the butterflies and the staying up all night talking no matter if you know ur going to fall asleep in Science the next day and the texting in class cuz you dont want to say goodbye when you wake up and the first thing you do is grab your phone and text them jsut so you can talk to them that much sooner. I had that with Jenny, not really Rozanna, but deffinitely with Jenny. She's my everything. ANything I could possibly wish for all bottled up in this beautiful girl. It's amazing. shes perfect. And she's MINE she just doesnt get it yet (: haha Well my friend Gabby is spending the night tonight and her and Jenny had had a nice little chat earlier this evening. Gabby apparently likes me... alot so she was telling Roz all about being a total...brat and Jenny didn't like it. Honestly it made me happy that Jenny didn't like it but it made me mad that GAbby put her through that. I'm talking to Jenny and It has totally made my night so much better. I Love her more than anything.... She's my girl (:

well I dont know what else to say you know? So I'm gonna go (: Talk to you all soon!

Miss. Slim!
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To Jacob

So Jake, I know you used to read this blog even though I begged you not to. :\ I know we went out for like almost 4 months and you loved me. I also know that it was wrong of me to just cut it off, but I want you to know that It seriously had nothing to do with you and it seriously was me... I don't know how to tell you and you won't ever talk to me anymore because I broke your heart. I'm so sorry that I ever hurt you like that. To the point where you thought about committing suicide. Something was happening with me that was confusing and every time you talked about sex it made me so uncomfortable. I told you again and again yet would you listen?? Maybe for a week and then you went right back to it... I hate you for that, you know. I wasn't done healing from what had happened! But you didn't care! I don't know why I'm saying sorry when all you ever did was hurt me but I'm the kind of person that hurts with others, I guess. I really wish we could have lasted longer then maybe I could have told you the truth. You disgust me, and I think it might be partly your fault that I am this way now. I know about the party and I know how it happened so long ago before I even met you but I think I would have been fine if you two hadn't pushed me over the edge. And now I'm floating in abyss of hate for men in general. My girlfriend, Jenny, Is amazing and she loves me as I love her. She's here for me and I'm there for her. We are going to last forever and you can suck it.

That's all I wanted you to know was that I'm lez and that's why it didn't work out, sorry.

Love Always and Forever,
Kenzi <3

Suicide... Killing more than yourself...

True story .... Happened to me a coupe years ago...

His hair shined in the hot sunlight as he looked at me. He was across the room but I still saw how utturably beautiful his deep rich-brown eyes were; how his face seemed exactly symetrical, and perfect. He was wearing the usual 'Gangster' ecamble with a touch of his own style, his pants were a bit baggy and sagged, his shirt fit the perfectly built chest, but was mostly covered by a black jacket. He looked at me with acute interest. I was used to attention from guys but this one guy seemed to make my breathing get faster and my heart to race. Usually if I cought the eye of a boy I would playfully turn my head and walk away swinging my butt to make sure they got a good veiw. I was a tease, big time. He was different though, I'd had guys better looking than him stare at me before, so why did I care that he was so handsom, why didn't I follow normal procedure? Finally after i have no idea how long, his head was gently caught between to small hands and dragged to the face of another girl. Watching hiim kiss this girl, this man i didn't even know, infurriated me! I shook my head to clear my thoughts as i began to imagine what it would be like if it was me he was kissing, the gentle press of his body would feel so protective and his lips would be warm....
When he pulled away and looked up I was no longer there.
I tried not to think of him, I tried to forget how he looked at me as if I was the only person there, but it somehow managed to creep into my mind as I lay in bed wishing for sleep to come. And it did eventually, with HIM following closely behind.




I was so surprised that I dropped my coffee onto the floor. HE was standing there in al his ahndsom glory, waiting for someone it looked like. Probably the girl he was kissing I told myself angrily. Spilt coffee forgotten i walked forward, trying to get through the door unnoticed for he was standing right next to it, it seemed impossible. "Hey! Hey Girl!" he said his voice so melodious i almot fainted, he surely wasnt talking to me! So i kept walking. His hand wrapped around my wrist, "Hey, are you okay?"
I lokked up into those unfathomable eyes and saw the same curiousity i saw the day before. "Um... ya, I'm fine." I barely managed to get out. His arm slid around my shoulders.



That was how we first met, we became friends, then closer, and clser, we told eachother everything, and we soon fell in love with oneanother. Everything seemed so happy! So right! Until he went to the doctor.....I had know about the pains he had been having in his lungs lately. But he said it was no big deal. So I didn't worry. When he came over that night he seemed so out of it so sad and gloomy sort of like a zombie, when we got to my room he closed the door, wrapped me in his arms and cried. I was so shocked and scared i began crying along with him asking what was wrong and telliong him i was frieghtened. I stroked his back as we stood there and held eachother. Finally he whispered in such a dead-pan voice the shivers ran down my back three times,"I'm dying baby, I have about two weeks left." I was shocked for a minute and couldn't move. He was leaving me, in the worst way. I grabbed him tighter and began crying harder than hw was himself.


The next two weeks we spent together, every single second. The last day he whispered to me "I love you so much, baby. Don't you ever forget that. Im so proud of you." He died as I held him. I lay there shaking, rocking, crying, screaming.


I wanted to kill myself ill admit it. I wanted to so bad that I had knifes to my wrists, guns to my head, but when i was about to i remembered something he said to me, "Listen to me, baby girl. When Im gone I want youto go on, I dont want you to go and be miserable. okay? I want you to find someone else and be happy. Plaese baby please be happy, for me be happy. I love you so much. Make me proud! Do something great with your life!!!!" That was always enough to make me stop. Even though i still hurt for him and love him, im moving on, I will never forget him.......I may be moving slowly but at least im still moving, and thats more than most can say.

Sund@y S3pt3mb3R 12, 2010

Hey What's up! Okay so Today was awesome mocha coffee thingy and then watched Charlie St. Cloud! It was the saddest movie I have ever seen other than My Sister's Keeper. So Sorry that I haven't been on in forever but I have been really busy. My Aunt Shannon and her three kids Lyndsey, Kylee, and Gage are living with us so it's really crazy! Gage is 7months old and Kylee is 2! Lyndsey is 11 and pretty much my best friend/sister now! : ) Well Hope everyone is good! Love you all!





Miss. Slimm

The Future....

"When it comes to the future, there are three kinds of people: those who let it happen, those who make it happen, and those who wonder what happened."
~Anonymous






Have you ever thought about the future?I think about it quite a bit.I have no idea what is going to happen, and honestly it worries me. I'm the kind of person that likes to know what's going on. But I pretty much have my future planned out how I want it. I decided I want to go into the Military. I think it would be a good experience for me. Most of my family is really supportive but then again there are those few who are worried about me and don't want me to go. And there are also some who don't believe I can handle it. I'll show them! Hahaha! Well, I don't know what else to talk about so I will just get off and talk to you guys later! ByeBye!



<3
Miss. Slimm

Woo hoo!!!

Okay so the diet. Good so far. Eating a healthy lunch and dinner. I sleep through breakfast lol and usually lunch too. But it's all good. I haven't been walking, I keep forgetting! Darn! I'm gonna set an alarm on my phone though so it's all good! And I have lost weight since the beginning of the summer! yay! I'm really excited! Really energetic! I have been doing push ups every day they are actually kind of fun. I love a good challenge and I love winnning. : ) I also Love being skinny and pretty! Bahahahaha so I'm working my way up to it. :) Hehehe You guys have no idea how psyched I am! Imay be going to the Carnival of Madness concert in August! Ohw ohw! : ) And then school starts soon! So I finally get to see all of muh friends! And this year I'm not having a boyfriend and I'm staying of drama and trouble. Wish me luck! I know I can do it If I have a little support : ) And anyways...boys are icky. Haven't our parents been telling us they have cooties our whole lives? They seem to be right about everything else. And they are right about this too....Be careful Ladies there are very series cooties out there also known as AIDS, HIV, Goneria, and others. Guys be careful too. Well Gonna go take a shower! Talk to you later! : ) Peace <3

Diet

I'm going on a diet. I'm 5' 7" and weigh 130....hmmm....Well I don't like it so I'm going to change it. I'll be walking 2 hours a day making it so I lose 1 pound a week. In 3 months I will weigh my goal of 118 pounds. I'll be skinny and I won't have to worry anout muffin-tops. Woo-hoo! So I'm really sticking to this diet! Also I need to do push-ups, pull-ups, sit-ups, crunches, and 3 5 minute miles. This is so I can begin a normal routine to stay fit and maybe even outrun most men when I go in to the military. Wish me luck! I'll keep you posted!

Saturday

Today is Saturday. An hour till Sunday. And I'm sad, lonely, in pain, and depressed. How did this happen? Only 5 minutes ago I was totally happy and everything! I hate this! And like everytime I'm happy my parents like strive to find something intimidating against me! It sucks : ( I hate this I hate life...Lord help me please. How are all y'all people out there? Anyone better than me? Hopefully... Well I'll probably stop blogging once school starts cuz after al this is my Summer blog. However, If I get emails telling me people want me to continue blogging I will. though I doubt that will happen. Anyways I'm tired. I need to go pray and finish catching up on my forgotten bible Verse studies. Everybody please prayt onight. Not only for yourselves and your family but for everyone in the world. To make the bad people better and to help everyone. In Mathew in the the bible it states that Jesus fixed a blind man's eyes. It's amazing and I believe it one hundred percent. And sorry if my bible names are wrong it may hove been in John, honestly Im kind of recently starting to get into the Bible. I've always believed though. Thank you to my Grandma, Grandpa, and great Grandmother. They all mean the World to me. And everyone please pray for the people who aren't as fortunate as you and thank the Lord for what he has given you.

I always end my prayers with "In God's name I pray, Amen." Although for some people that wont exactly work. I know there is a vast array of religions out there...Maybe you could share what you pray for. And how you end your prayers. And hey if you need something to be prayed for Please comment and we will all pray for you! Hope everyone is okay and you are all in my prayers!


Miss. Slim, Mrs. Beast, Kenz, Kenzie, Skitz, Mac, Mckenz, McKenzie, Babygurl...whatever It is you call me ; ) Night! xoxoxoxoxo

WoW I do believe it is July 28, Wednesday : )

Awesome day today! Most amazing ever! I'm sooo psyched!!!! Yay! You can't even believe how happy i am! Tell you later! Got to go Mom's is kicking me off! later!

Family...

Okay so my family is huge and messed up here ya go...

<>= married ()=title name=name= their children

Rick(grandpa) = Mary Ruth, Terry Lynn, and Shannon

Mary Ruth=JT, Brittany, Timmy
Terry Lynn=Brandon
Shannon=Lyndsey, Kylee, Gage

Rick Marlene+(idk him)= Julie and Jill

Julie=Peyton,Jordan*, Morgan*, Mackayla*, Sean, Casey, Skylar, Jada*, Hailey**
*~Not Bill's, **~ Not Julie's

Jill=Me(Kenzie), Harley

Rick is an alchohalich that screams alot yet loves more than anone in the world and a great buisness man
Pam is someone that I don't know very well
Marlene is sweet and kind and gentle. She's capable and funny. Smart and beautiful even in her age. Dealing with alot of stress from Rick
Mary Ruth is a drug head. Doesn't care about her children or anyone but herself. Has officially been disowned from are family. SHe brought a drunk man home and put him in the same room as me. Didn't end well... Her first husband Jimmy is the best guy in the world.
Terry Lynn is confused and would rather have her head stuck up in a fairy tail then into reality. She's married to Tommy and he is a nice man that is also a firefighter.
Shannon is the best of them all.She has recently gone through the horrors of a divorce but is funny and loves life. She tries to make the best for her kids; they mean everything to her.
Julie is a good person. Although she has 10 kids and can't control them very well she is a good mom and very sensitive and sweet. She is currently going through a stage that has to be horrible because Rick refuses to let her into his house or any of her kids other than Jordan. SHe is married to Bill who I don't really know all that well. But he seems nice enough and like a good Dad other than being a push over towards his whiny daughter Hailey.
Jill is my mommy and is funny just like Shannon. They are alot alike. But if you get on Mom's bad side you are in for trouble. She is a dispatcher at the police department and is without a doubt very over-protective. Steve who is my Daddy is manager at a motorcycle shop and is also funny and mean if need be. Don't mess with his Kids and you'll be fine. Also he veiws life in a way that most poeple should. He's Independent and smart. Maybe not book smart in anything other than Math and science but deffinetly street smart. He tries to displace himself from Drama.
Now the Kids. JT is cool. He does drugs but is a nice guy.
Brittany is no one that I would like to talk to ever again. There used to be a time when she cared about me but her mother haschanged her. She's emo and taught me to cut myself.
Timmy is a little kid that I don't really know. From what I have witnessed he is agressive and one of the Bullies.
Brandon is a child molester. He molested both me and my cousin. So I don't give a crap about him. He is in a group home for trying to kill his mom and dad.
Lyndsey is one of my best friends. She's talented in everything she tries and knows how to pick the right people as friends. Although she can be lazy.
Kylee is the most adorable blue-eyed blonde you have ever met. She talks already like a pro and is so funny! She loves everyone and I'll kill the first person that ever hurts her.
Gage is my little sweetheart. He's the cutest and best darn baby in the World. And he has me wrapped around all his little fingers.
Jordan is smy best friend. He's funny and understands. He's protective over me and I love him a lot. Unfortunately he has ADD which to me is a load of bull poopoo. So he is currently sent away from his home to live in a group home.He's the best guy you'll ever meet.
Peyton is cute and sweet.
Skylar and Cassie are crazy tyrants. They have no discipline and lie to no extent. but they are cute and loving.
Hailey is a brat. if she doesnt get what she wants she cries to her daddy. Always tries to get me and Lynz in trouble. Don't like her very much.
ODnt know any of her other kids.


Now on my Daddy's side there is:

Papa Harley=Daddy and Uncle Rick
Daddy= Me and Harley

Uncle Rick=Alpine

Uncle rick is an amazing cop and is quickly succeeding in his job.
Aunt Misty is funny and nice.
Alpine is my little cousin and is funny and really smart.


So there ya have it! My family...

My weird random post # 3

Up for some more fun???

Woo hoo! This is awesome! How bout an excerpt from my book?? Okay! If you insist!!! hahaha

" 'Oh no you don't!' Ashley said as she caught the little boys shirt before he ran off to play. 'Clean your room first, please!' 'Yes Mommy' he replied with his head hung. mommy? he said mommy. Wow, feelings of joy spread through her body like lightning"

finish later! Night~!

Me being Weird and Random post # 2 : )

Okay so Random Words that pop into my head!

Popcorn
hot dog
lollipop
shower
toilet
Television
stairs
Dog
Game
boy
love
hate
hair
table
you
me
bathroom
bed
him
harley
let
see
enjoy
bet
lost
toy
fun


hahaha I have a lot more but I dont want to bore you now im going to add something to the end...

Popcorn party
hotdog toy
lollipop lick
shower amazing
toilet fell in
television loud
stairs carpeted
Dog bath
Game show
Boy sexy
love Sem Sem
hate you
hair gorgeous
table cards
you hot
me the best
bathroom later
bed sleep
him mine
Harley brother
let nope
see me
enjoy life
bet money
lost help me
toy truck
fun only with me!

hehehe have fun!

My being weird and Random post # 1 : )

Okay so to start the night off I will begin with a song..just kidding. I'll start by sharing some of my texts! : )



ABBY:Me too
ME: Yeah the movie was fun but I'm pooped!
((txt from Brayden)

BRAYDEN:nawhhh
ME: Good cuz everyone else is sleeping and im bored!
((Txt from Brayden)

BRAYDEN:haha
ME: Aaq PLEASE!!! I'm about to die from boredom!
(txt from Abby)

ABBY:Ya me too lol but im still going to read i was just on FB thanking people for Happy bdays lol
ME: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
(txt from Brayden)

BRAYDEN:u aaq:)
ME:hmmm....ok....how many books have you read in your entire life???
(txt from Abby)

ABBY:Xoxoxoxoxo but u already said it last night at 12:03 and woke me up
ME: sorry : )
(txt from Brayden)
BRAYDEN: F*** like 5. hahah u?
ME: too many to count hahaha

(txt from Abby)

ABBY:No Biggy
ME: You really think Im skinny?? lol jk jk

(txt from Abby)

ABBY:Duh
ME:hehe
(txt from Brayden)

BRAYDEN:gay
ME:wow u r? no wonder u dont like me anymore...
(txt from Abby)

ABBY:Serious
ME:what??

Okay so that is it! hahaha well a little peice of my life : ) enjoy!

Just got back from the movies : )

Went to the movies to see the Sorcerer's Apprentice with my friend Abby. It was way cool. I got a headache but that's from the extreme measures of awesome that the movie reached. : ) hahaha It was tight. I miss hanging out with my friends. I used to go out like every weekend. Blew about a hundred bucks a month : ) Yaya! Miss those days. But now I'm being more responsible and decide once a month is good enough for me... : ( Doing the right thing is boring..hahaha I've decided that when I get older I'm going to be mega bucks rich! I'm going to go out every DAY!!! Yaya! I'm feeling really flirty tonight. But then again I always do when I go out. That's why I get into so much trouble with boys : ) hehehe... Anyways Im in a bloggin mood so i'm just going to blog randm stuff until i feel tired : ) Make up for all the lost time ; ) Okay so here we go:

Just Lose It~ Eminem

My favorite song in the whole wide world! Here's the lyrics so you can celebrate in amazingness with me : ) hahahaha

Just Lose it

Down Down Down, Down down Down, down down down

Ok...
Guess Who's back?
Back again?
Shady's back!
Tell a friend.
Whaaaaaa...

Now everyone report to the dance floor.
To the dance floor, to the dance floor.
Now everyone report to the dance floor.
Alright stop! pajama time!

Come here little kiddies on my lap!
Guess whos back with a brand new rap
and I dont mean rap a in a new case of child melestates and accusates.
ah ah ah ah ah ah
No worries pappas got a brand new bag of toys
what else could i possibly do to make noise?
I done touched on everything but little boys.
Thats not a stab at michael thats just a metaphor.
Im just psycho, I go a little bit crazy sometimes.
I get a little bit out of control with my rhymes.
Good God, dip, do a little slide
Bend down, touch your toes, and just glide
To the center of the dance floor
Like TP for my bung hole and it's cool if you let one go

Nobody's gonna know, who'd hear it?
Give a little poot poot, it's okay
Oops my CD just skipped
And everyone just heard you let one rip

Now I'm gonna make you dance, it's your chance
Yeah boy, shake that ass, whoops I mean girl, girl, girl, girl
Girl you know you're my world, alright now lose it
(Ah ah ah ah ah)
Just lose it
(Ah ah ah ah ah)
Go crazy
(Ah ah ah ah ah)
Oh baby
(Ah ah)
Oh baby
(Ah ah)

It's Friday and it's my day
Used to party all the way to Sunday
Maybe 'til Monday, I don't know what day
Everyday's just a holiday
Cruisin' on the freeway, feelin' kind of breezy
Let the top down and my hair blow
I don't know where I'm goin', all I know
Is when I get there someone's gonna touch my body

Excuse me miss, I don't mean to sound like a jerk
But I'm feelin' just a little stressed out from work
Would you punch me in the stomach and pull my hair?
Spit on me, maybe gouge my eyes out, yeah
Now what's ya name girl, what's ya sign?
Man you must be up out yo mind
Dre, ah, ah, beer goggles, blind
I'm just tryin' to unwind, now I'm

Now I'm gonna make you dance, it's your chance
Yeah boy, shake that ass, whoops I mean girl, girl girl girl
Girl you know you're my world, alright now lose it
(Ah ah ah ah ah)
Just lose it
(Ah ah ah ah ah)
Go crazy
(Ah ah ah ah ah)
Oh baby
(Ah ah)
Oh baby (ah ah)

It's Tuesday and I'm locked up
I'm in jail and I don't know what happened
They say I was runnin' butt naked
Down the street screamin' "Ah ah ah ah"
Well I'm sorry, I don't remember
All I know is this much, I'm not guilty
They said. "Save it, boy we got you on tape
Yellin' at an old lady touch my body"

Now this is the part where the rap breaks down
It's real intense, no one makes a sound
Everything looks like it's '8 Mile' now
The beat comes back and everybody lose themselves
Now snap back to reality, look it's B. Rabbit
Oh you signed me up to battle? I'm a grown man
Tubba tubba tubba tubba tubba tubba tubba
I don't have any lines to go right here so tubba

Tellytubby fellas, what, fellas, what
Grab your left nut, make your right one jealous what
Black girls, white girls, skinny girls, fat girls
Tall girls, small girls, I'm callin' all girls
Everyone report to the dance floor
It's your chance for a little romance or butt squeezin'
It's the season, just go ah ah ah ah, it's so appeasin'

Now I'm gonna make you dance, it's your chance
Yeah boy, shake that ass, whoops I mean girl, girl girl girl
Girl you know you're my world, alright now lose it
(Ah ah ah ah ah)
Just lose it
(Ah ah ah ah ah)
Go crazy
(Ah ah ah ah ah)
Oh baby
(Ah ah)
Oh baby, baby
(Ah ah)

Touch my body, touch my body
Oh boy just touch my body, I mean girl just touch my body

Monday...The 26th of July

Today started out good, I woke up at 10 am after going to sleep at 3 am. Daddy had homemade waffles ready. After we ate we went grocery shopping, then came home so Harley could go spend the night at his friends house. After he left we went and got all of our school supplies. It took me an hour to get mine and Harley's stuff all sorted out and ready to be taken to school. i had to sharpen 60 pencils for him. Ugh it was horrible. : ) But I texted my friends the whole time : ) Then I read an email I got.... and I just had this feeling that it wasnt right. That something was wrong with what was going on. Maybe he was lying or maybe I messed up destiny when I waltzed into his life. But all I know now is that I'm never going to see him, at least not for four years. And what if he finally decides that I'm not who he thought I was????? What if he meets me in 4 years and all of a sudden he's like "What was I thinking I don't like her worth a darn. She's not at all who I thought she would be. Wow big mistake." I know that I love him and I just don't want to disappoint him. i'm scared of him yet I can't breath without knowing that if I need him alls I have to do is Email him and He'll help me to the best of his ability. So why am i pushing him away??? Wow. Epiphany...I need to let him decide and I'm just being self concious. See I told you blogging helps me ; )

So SemSem....

I'm sorry I said what I did to you on that last email. I want you to know that I love you. I don't know why and I don't know how it happened, but I really think I do love you. And I am sorry about that thing that happened with that girl. I have no idea why she would ever do that to you because you are an amazing guy and anyone would be lucky to have and i'm happy that I do. Or at least I think I do. You keep saying I'm all yours. And I am. Forever. This is the reason that everytime I talk to another guy I don't feel anything like attraction. or when a guy i have liked for years finally asks me out I say no because all of a sudden I don't want to date any guy but you. And when i was going out with Jacob I knew there was something wrong. i actually called him by your name once. Well that's how I feel. So yeah : )


Love Always to everyone...

Miss. Slim

Good Golly Miss.Moly....

It's been ages since I hae blogged. It's one of those things that I enjoy and totally missed while I wasn't working on it! So I was thinking about adding some excerpts from my book that I'm writing... What do you think? I think it would be a good way for me to be critiqued and get to show off. hahaha...just kidding. Well I finally got my cell phone back! Yay! i'm missing someone so much right now that I just want to break down on my bed and cry for days. I feel lonely lately....I mean I have friends and I hang out a lot and I try doing fun things. i'm on the phone 24/7 and now texting a lot too. So why am i so empty?? I mean I know it isn't because of Jacob...I mean I did love him but i think that it might have just been me wishing I was in love....And now, well actually for about a year now i've been falling in love with another guy..and all I think about is him mostly....but he's too far away, both physically and maybe even mentally....I have no clue if I am making any sense right now but I don't care. I hate being a teenager! It sucks! It's all too confusing..School starts again in a couple of weeks...boo. I'm not ready for that kind of drama.....Lord help me....Oh yeah and now I have this ex-boyfriend Zach telling me he still loves and always has ..and then he asked me if I would mind if he had sex with another girl I mean WTF!!!! really??? Well I got to go : ( I ll talk to yall later ; (


Love always...
Miss. Slim......

Monday-July 5th, 2010-First Full Day In Arizona

Today the temperature was somewhere in the 100s. We ate fresh fruit for breakfast and then helped Aunt Laura and Uncle Brian move into their house and out of their apartment. ooops i have to go talk to you later!

In Pheonix Seeing Uncle Brian

Today I woke up at 4:30 after going to bed at 3 am. Why did I wake up so early? Well, today we started off on our 15 hour drive to Pheonix, Az. I slept until 10 am after leaving and instantly falling asleep at 5 am. I woke up, read my books, and got a really bad stomach ache so I went back to sleep. I woke up around 12 and ate sandwiches. Read some more and got sick and then went back to sleep from 1 to 3. Woke up, listened to Kid Rock and Nickleback, then went back to sleep until 4. Then to keep us entertained Daddy had Harley and I try to catch a fly in the truck for a dollar and then whoever saw the first big cactus got a dollar too. It was fun. Harley won both. : ) Finally at 8 we got here and are all situated. Hope everyone has a happy 4th of July!

Happy Father's Day!

Hey okay well today we were heading up to the Pathfinder Dam and this 55 year-old man named Wayne was in front of us (btw: I didn't figure out his name and age until he was being questioned to make sure he didn't have a concussion.) on his motorcycle. His helmet was very securely tied to his sissy bar behind him as he started weaving. Not only should he NOT be weaivng on a curvy road!, but also he shouldn't have been going least 40 mph. I mean I even know better than that! When I weave on my dirtbike I wait until I am on a nice straight road and don't go to fast and anyways I WEAR MY HELMET!!! This poor guy probably would have been okay if his tires hadn't purchased witha nice patch of gravel. Down he went. Well more like Down he was thrown. the bike hit him a Blood everywhere we stopped and ran to help. He was still, not breathing, not moving; at least not until we started talking to him and trying to get him into a different position. ... See MoreHis shoe was thrown a couple yards away and his helmet was still securely tied to his bike. Getting blood all over himself Daddy tried to help him and they had to yell at the poor man who I am sure was going through shock as he wiggled around and tried to get up. You could tell he was in pain. After a while of helping the helicopter finally showed and air lifted the oor man out. All in all, well Father's Day was great! hahaha poor guy I hope he's okay. A big gash on his head, bloody nose, most likely internal bleeding, and a punctured lung. I really hope he lives, he seemed nice enough.

Presents for Dad: A new Watch! 5 hours of doing whatever he says without complaining, being able to ground me for a week for no reason, waking up early and making him coffee for three weeks before he goes to work, and somehting else that I don't remember! lol well Happy Father's Day!

Wow! It's been a long time!

A lot has happened since the night Jacob and I broke up. I find it quite compelling and rather funny how after I break up with him for reasons that I'm surprised I'm mature and even old enough to realize the kind of situation I was in that I can still want to be with him. When we talk it's like nothing has changed except there are no double meanings and/or sexual comments. I regret saying that I feel more secure and happy with things that way. I'm not going to go back out with him however, considering it will go back to the same routine. thinking about the things and experiences I shared with and just in general shared with Jacob I can honestly say I don't ...quite regret it. i look down upon myself for it. I'm embarrassed beyond comprehension, and I'm really very disappointed in myself. It's Saturday and tomorrow is Father's Day. I'll post a separate blog about that! : ) Anyways, I find myself staying up at night thinking about the two men in my life. Semm and Jacob. Semm and I have been extremely close since the first night I began talking to him. He understands and helps me in ways that I'm truly astounded. How can someone know ME so well yet I barely even know them? I do have a fear that he is using me for certain things. I would heart-broken of course. It would take a while to recover, but I would eventually recover. No man can hold me down. I'm a dependent person and I respect myself for things I will never speak aloud to strangers, or even the people so close my heart they might as well own me. Life is a complicated game. Guys are just one of the hard obstacles you go over. Mostly you crawl to the top and use all of your energy to get there and then when you are finally at the top you trip up and clumsily fall all the way down the other side. It's how you pick yourself of that counts. How you don't let those tumults slow you down and sidetrack you from the other obstacles out there. If you haven't noticed I'm starting to jump around on subjects a little. I think it's a natural procedure for my brain. I am never able to stick to one specific subject just because I have so much going on in my head that I want to express it all at once. Sorry about that, Viewers. : ) Then again it may have something to do with the level of tiredness my body has escalated to. The last three nights I've only been stealing a few hours of sleep. I've been staying up until early hours in the morning helping my mom with a Wedding Cake she made. Then waking up at around 8 after only 4 or 3 hours of sleep. Only to get up and begin the whole strenuous labors o doing it again. Hahaha It actually isn't too bad. It's fun creating things like that. Especially yummy ones you get to test taste. hahaha... : ) Since it is 12:06, I'm teenager, tomorrow is Father's Day, and I am uncharacteristically tired I think I will Log off and get some shut-eye. : ) love you all. : )



Extra Crap that I forget to Do Sometimes : )

Music: Anything by Eminem
Book: Spirit Bound by Richelle Mead
Movie: Paranormal Activity (Jake you still need to watch that with me : ) hahaha)
Mood: Exhausted, Confused, Elated, Calm, Happy, Misguided, and Sorrowful


Have a Happy Father's Day tomorrow! Tell all y'all's Daddy's that you love them! Hehehe : ) <3

Sad Day...But it's what I had to do.....

Well I am officially single and I plan on staying that way....so guys STOP ASKING ME OUT!!!!I sware five minutes after I post that I'm single 8 guys asked me out. Really boys, clear all the crapout of your eyes, seriously what the Hell are you seeing that I don't???? I don't get it! I'm not pretty, if anything I'm average. And I'm not funny unless I know you long enough to not get nervous and say stupid embarrassing things. I'm not interesting. The coolest thing about me is that I've been out of the country and I ride dirtbikes and snowboard. I may excel at dirtbikes and skateboarding but I sware that everytime I get on my snowboard I fall on either my face or butt. I'm sooo not in shape and I'm a total book freak. There are things about me no one except my Grandma Cookie will truly understand. If you mess with me I am not afraid to deck you and break your nose. Ask my cousin Brandon He'll tell you all about it. I have to go to bed : ( Iwill no doubt cry and dream about things I would rather forget about but hey life sucks balls, since when has it not? I guess I need to realize that. Well Goodnight everyone Love you all

Murder or not?????

Today I was watching Book TV, yes I know I'm a nerd, and this book came up: Last Words of the Executed. My Grandma Cookie and Papa Harley brought up the points that no one cares what murderers' last words are and that murderes should get executed in the same way they killed their victims. I found the latter extremely inhuman and quite cruel. Humans do make mistakes and that's the reason of being human. To make mistakes and be forgiven, also to forgive. The idea of having other human beings who are supposebly there to help and protect and make things riht and just in America MURDERING these criminals just because they want to make them suffer is repulsing. I can't even believe my grandmother thinks that way. Totally discombobulated I found that I couldn't even form a reply to her random comment. So What do you think? Is my grandma ,and mom: because I asked her and her reply was quite similar to Grandma Cookies, right?? Or am I right in believing that her ideas are totally inappropriate and unnecassary????

umm...I think it might be Tuesday

Comment Relpy~

@SemSem

I totally agree!!!! The country is waaaaay better but omg there was a skunk last night!! ewwwwwy lol ; ) I mis you too Mr.Beast...I mean Mr.Semm lol : ) hope you are well : ) OH yeah and the horses! Totally awesome!They are so dirty though! lol everytime I get on I always slide off extremely dirty! It's hillarious! OMG!! how is your mom and sister???

~ <3 Miss.Slim



I sware I can not remember the date!

Holy cow. I don't know if it's Tuesday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, or Thursday! I'm learning, nery slowly I might add, how tomove with the horse. It's a really amazing thing. Like being on my dirtbike. When you ride you and your bike somehow mesh together and become one big fast machine. When you twist that throttle and feel the bike thrust ahead gain speed. You move with your whole body. Turning is so graceful, instead of turning with your handles like most would think youturn with your body. Hold on with your knees and feet and angle and twist your hips and abdomen. It's a great feeling. I love being on my bike and riding. Feeling the wind. However I believe that I have caught enough bugs in my bra to repopulate Texas! It's too hot to wear my jersey so I just wear my chest protector and a tank top.Therefore all the bugs find ways to slide down my shirt, get caugh in my bra and snuggle up for the ride. I take a shower every afternoon when we finish ourride. Also bug has become a natural part of my diet. Ooops well time for dinner!I'll tell y'all more later! Love you all!

Eh I think it's Saturday

Today has been a day dedicated to bad memories. I really like how I can tell my Grandma Cookie anything and everything and I know she will understand. It makes me feel so much better. So as I sat here and started feeling...I really don't know how to describe it, Depressed mostly I guess, I thought about my blog. Unfortunately it really kind of sucks. I planned to blog every single day and ended up not getting around to it. I'll try harder I guess. It's beautiful outside. It rained pretty hard yesterday around seven last night. Just five minutes, multiple sheets of hail and rain pounded on the metal roof. It's so green out here. Not like in the city whereif you look out the window you see annoying neighbors and tractors tearing apart the beautiful scenery. Out here there are trees that go on forever. Bright green grass. And the newly hatched turkey chicks. They are barely big enough to be seen over the grass. My Papa Harley's horse Greyco is a big strong white horse. I looked out the window a few seconds ago and he looked like a hornless unicorn running through the beautiful greenery. The Sun was shining and reflecting off his beautiful coat. He's a wild one though. Really rowdy. Grandma has a handsom Brown horse. His name is Brownie. He's the one I ride, not extremely tame but tame enough that he's only pushed me off once, and thankfully I landed in a nice soft warm pile of horse poo. I think he aimed for it. They are so intelligent. He knows I haven't riden in a while and don't exactly know how. When he trots I all but bounce off. I'm learning, trying to learn anyways. Hepushes me around like no other, he knows I have no clue on how to do anything about it. So Grandma tells me to scoot up, tuck in my knees and pull his reins in the direction I want. When I'm able to stay on I really enjoy trotting. I can't wait to run, but Brownie Is an old boy. Old enough to get tired of my crap. Grandma says that you can tell when he's tired of me, he swishes his tail in a peculiar manner and he starts throwing his head back. I need to learn how to ride with him, move with his strong muscles. They are powerful and beautiful, intelligent. It's always hillarious when he will stop and lift his tail. You can hear the deep plunks as the poo falls to the ground. It smells pretty bad too. And it sounds like a waterfall, I have no idea how horses pee so much. Oh yeah, I've been rambling. I'll tell you about my day. We went to Storybook Island. It's a big area that has explorable little houses and castles. Many playgrounds and they are based on little childhood stories and nursery rhymes like Humpty Dumpty and the Three Little Pigs. Sadly, I'm too old to play but it was enjoyable watching my brother and little cousin play. Afterwards we picked up my 90 year old (and aging) Great Grandmother; Grandma Muriel. Her memory is almost as good as her hearing. Non existant. She barely remembers anyone. I can't even list all of the names she has greeted me by. But we still love her. Lunch at Fuddruckers was delicious. They have the best hamburgers ever! Haha I accidently put BBQ sauce on my meal instead of Ketchup. It was pretty yummy, you should try it sometime! After we ate and dropped Grandma Muriel off at her apartment in the old people home we drove to Custer and went put-put golfing. I was second, Grandma was first. I got alot of reading done in the truck today. Harley and Alpine got baloons. I didn't get one. : ( We are going to be having fruit salad tomorrow and steak for dinner! yay! I knew blogging would make me feel better! I feel so much better. I'm going to go I'll probably blog again later. Love you everyone....

Thursday~Dirt, Work, and Pain day.

Well today started out with krabby patty pancackes. We gradually moved on to standing outside and picking up Pinecones. Then wewent and scrapedpaintoff ofa building so that we can repaint it. I think it's going to be a really bright green color, weird I know. Next we went on a 3 hour,36 mile dirtbike ride. I may have accidentally rear-endedmy little cousin and then ran over my brother. But in my defense he crashed right infront of me and there was nowhere else to go. He's justlucky Ithrewmy bike the other way and jumped offinstead of just going over. hahaha ; )

@SemSem~ Love you and miss you!

Still Monday

Well: )JUst got back from a mile long walk. Tomorrow we walk three. We went on a nice dirtbike ride. No offense to my grandma but she is prettyslow. Then again she did just recently break her wrist. I tried not to pass her and seem like a toally spoiled "im better than you" little girl. Eventually my papa Harley took me on a different trail and we did some fast , rocky, endure-proud riding ; ) Well time for a bath talk to you tomorrow!

Monday

Last night was awesome : ) I discovered that my grandma is a turkey whisperer. If you haven't heard it's the new thing. : ) She gobbles like a turkey and they gobble right back. Then my baby brother tried it out and got a response. I was laughing so hard I almost peed my pants. I got a sunburn. I was looking to get a nice tan but instead of moving onto my stomach to even it out I fell asleep and now have a big strip of red sunburn on both of my legs. Good-bye sexy tan; hello weird and unattractive oddly shaped sunburn : )You only wish you were as cool as moi. My Grandpa Harley fought in the Army. He doesn't really talk about it but I'm sure it was traumatizing back then. The things they would do and those crazy butt people... it's scary. My life is pretty much scheduled put in a nice, neat manner. I'm going to attend ROTC while I'm in high school then go to college. Probably Chaddron State College in Nebraska. I washoping for a more elite(IDK if I used that word right). [if you haven't realized I know alot of big and good vocab words but I don't use them right. Ask Jake lol I always ask him if I used the word right. Mostly the answer is NO. : )] for instance: Harvard, West Point, Stanford, Yale, Michigan State, Kaplan, colleges like that. And after college I will go to OCS in the millitary. Then become either an MP or a Ranger.How gay is it that they don't allow women to be SEALs???? it's repulsing...kind of : ) I'm just dramatic ; ) But it's not fair. I mean really that's like saying guys can't dance because it's a womanly thing. I realize when the "council" people made that rule they were in the time wherethey protected their women. And I love the feeling of being cared about and protected, and I really hope my husband is like that. I mean what girl doesn't like that? It's a woman thing I guess, men like to protect (mostly) and women like to be protected. But women can still be in organizations like that and be protected. Hell, the Army and Military are all about being family. Everyone protects everyone. They all protect their own. Okay well jumping around a bit. My family is an interesting mix of great people. My Uncle Rick is a Cheif of Police and iscurrently attending FBI training. His wife Aunt Misty is a car saleswoman. Hid daughter is 9 years old. My Grandpa Harley was in the war, and then worked some odd jobs, ummm big tucks and rocks if I remember right. It was a while ago. My Grandma Cookie was an insurance lady. Then she worked in a liquor store. They all ride dirtbikes, motorcycles, shoot guns and bows, and care about one another. Of course there ismyhouse family,and we are the ones that tie it all together, the two families I mean. My daddy Steve went to college to be a cop, but decided it wasn't his thing. He used to love photography which is where I believe I inherited it from. Heis a good artistand he's my hero. No doubt about it. And the best at that. She's always there for me and of course she is al;ways wrapping her protective wings around me. SometimesI like it sometimes I suffocate. But I know that if something happens she will always save me from the world. BTW sorry for the interupption but my Grandpa thinks y'all should know that Spongebob is on. : )hehe anyways my mommy is the best. Then there is the other side of the fam which i will tell you about when I get to their house. Anyways Ithink I'm gonna head outside. Talk to you later!

Song: Beautiful by Christina Agulera
Movie: Spongebob
Book: Succubus book 1 still : )
Mood: happy, energetic, missing everyone specially Jake and Semm

Saturday/Sunday

Okay Well It's Sunday. Sorry about not posting yesterday I got busy and didn't have time o post. Well actually, I talked to Jacob, watched TV and did laundry. I guess it doesn't really matter that I didnt post since it was so unoproductive. Today Is A lot better!!!! I'm finally at my Grandma Cookie's house! Yay! The four hour drive wasn't bad. I read books on my Kindle and slept. When I got here we ate some burgers and dogs and beans. Can't wait fir my grandma's spaghetti it is the best in the World! Tomorrow we go to pick up my cousin Alpine. She's 9 I think, and the cutest little kid ever. I love her tons,and we always get a bit attached. : ) Well got to go! Sun is out and it is the perfect time to tan. Thank God I went shopping last night! : )))

Song: Baby Got Back
Movie: The Lightning Theif
Book:Succucbus Book 1
Mood: Happy, exited, content, already missing Jake ; (

FRIDAY!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!! SUMMER!!!!!

Today we had to go to school for half a day! It sucked but was really funny and I looked really pretty! : ) Not much to say today....I haven't really been keeping up with my blog lol....Super busy with Jake and people pulling off my shirts and putting their hands up my skirts. Good thing I can handle that crap. Haha people need to get layed more often, that's what causes them to have such feelings of molestation. Lol Well Since it is officially Summer! And I am officially in the 8th grade I feel like celebrating! Anyone else in???

Going to my Grandma Cookie's house in South Dakota! For 2 weeks! yay! That's two weeks of non stop fun! Dirtbikes, horses, coffee, walking, getting in shape, eating great food, talking baout my future, and chilling with my most favorite people in the whole world! I love my Grandma Cookie and Grandpa Harley. They understand me more than anyone else and It's really cool. Well other than Jacob and that other special guy : ) I have no clue if it's okay to say his name so I'm just going to call him Semm... : )

Song: Trapped in the Drive-Thru by Al Yankovich : )

Movie: Nightmare on Elm Street (the new one)

Book: Fade Out by Rachel Cain

Mood(s): Happy, excited, longing

Thursday! Half A Day Left!!!!YAY!! : )

Yay! Today was good until my "friend" Tyler ditched me. It sucked but Oh well I guess. I'm finally taking everyone's advice and dropping those of whom aren't.....worthy. hahaha does that sound self centered??? Oh well.

Tuesday...and like I said THERE WAS DRAMA!

Okay I know I can be a totally horrible person...and is it really bad that I have fun being mean???? Hahaha : ) Well there is this little girl that I go to school with. She showers about once a day, wears the same clothes everyday (and i know she has clothes because i gave her like a whole wardrobe for her birthday---when we were friends---) and honestly I never really liked her. you can ask my best friend Tyler. I always talked about how I don't like her. But anyways, Anyways, we were in Physical Education today and my buddy Coulter was standing about 1 1/2 feet away from her! It was scary. hahaha so of course I had to go over and save him from that horrible freak! So I did, grabbed his arm and pulled him away, and while I did it I may have let out a comment somewhat like: "Ewwww! Coulter get away from that disease! You might catch it!" hahaha. That was probably not really necessary but it was hillarious! Hahaha well anyways got to go!

3 More Days Of School Left!!!! : ) yay!!!

Most Embarrassing Day EVER!

Well not realizing the timing on my calender I went to school pumped up and happy. I stayed like that all morning, at least until 3rd and 4th period class when Coulter politely tied his sweatshirt around my waist and whispered to me that I had started my monthly. So after waiting for my already injured daddy to bring me in some new panties and jeans (Coulter was a gentleman enough to let me wear his sweatshirt until he came but asked me to 'please not sit on it, I don't want your girly stuff all over my sweatshirt') I missed lunch. Hungry, embarrassed and soaked from the pouring rain I trundled to PE where I got the worst cramps anyone could ever imagine. Practically doubled over and feeling like puking my PE teacher Shrow asked me if I would like to sit down for the rest of the period. Finally, in Writing while turning in my school-issued laptop I sprayed a little too much cleaner onto the screen and it seeped into the cracks. Now my extremely amazing laptop is screwed until the tech man can fix it this Summer. Social Studies was a tear-jerker. We watched a video about the Rwanda Genocide. The movie was "Hotel Rwanda". There was murder, hate, and soooo much more. It was horrible and I sat wrapped in my ex-boyfriend Blake's arms crying the whole time/ Only wishing it could have been the true love of my life. Unfortunately he wasn't there. He's too far away from me. : ( Has anyone ever had a day as embarrassing as that?? I doubt it.... Oh i forgot to tell you how a the guys in my class, every other 7th grade boy, and even some of the immature 8th grade boys gave me a wide berth for the rest of the day. Apparently people knew and never told me about the giant red spot appearing and growin on my favorite pair of faded jeans. Hope that stain comes out.

The Monday School Day is over! God help me get through the rest of this day and then I shall only have 4 days left! Woo-Hoo!

PSS- My aunt is coming over tonight. Yay : ) Love her to death. She's the coolest and I look up to her more than anyone else...well other than my Uncle Brian. Another Story for another day and now I will gracefully retreat to my room to try and get over my embarrassing day with a good book, a cup of coffee, and maybe even a nap. : )

Wake-up Call

I sware I get so crazy and do the oddest things when I stay up late with Jacob. Let's see, last night was great. Jacob and I had lots of fun. : ) Over the phone while we are snuggled up in bed, whispering to each other. Needing each other. : ) Although I have to go to bed at 9 and my parents don't seem to understand my needs as a teenager, i had to go to bed and leave him. : ( Is it possible to fall back in love? Am I betraying that other guy?? I don't know what to do about boys, I know that I love Jacob and I know that I love him. I want to spend my whole Summer with Jacob. Being held and kissed and cared about. It sounds perfect and amazing and I want it. I want it bad. I guess I will have to be more patient and just let what happens come. : ) It is Monday, May 24, 2010. Three days until Jacob's Birthday. He will be 16. : ) I turn 14 this September. This is the last week of school. Hallelujah!

A long 5 days until school is over.....

: ( Sad Day

Today was great, had fun with the family, enjoyed the new room design, talk to the most amazing guy ever, went to a barbeque, got home and started planning a trip to the Mall. That's when it happened. I looked out my window and saw my Dad laying down in the grass trying to get up. I ran down the stairs as fast as I could and went outside to help him, or see what he was doing. When I went out it was obvious he was in extreme pain and couldn't even move. I went to his side and asked what was happening, he told me he was unable to move and that it hurt. I went in and yelled for my mom. She came out and we let him rest for a minute. We finally dragged him into the house and fixed him up on the couch. He wasn't doing too good. And was failing at trying to be the cool tough guy that didn't mind the pain and could take it on. My dad is turning 37 he's really young and shouldn't have anything serious. I think he should see a doctor. I helped him up the stairs and into bed a couple hours later. It killed me seeing my dad so helpless like that.... I remember grabbing my Special necklace and praying for God to heal him. : ( I hope he's okay and makes it through this.

Tomorrow is unfortunately Monday. : ( Thank God I only have 5 more days until Summer and I'm free. : )

Cleaning

Today, as every Saturday is, was cleaning day. I reorganized my room. It looks really sweet in it's new...order. I like it better this way. I may keep it like this, but I will no doubt be over it by next month. I've been thinking about my boyfriend a lot lately. Not being able to see him and be with him is really making it hard. I don't think I've ever felt such longing in my life. I feel empty at night when I go to bed. Is it bad that only hearing his voice just isn't cutting it anymore? I want to see his face, and feel his arms around me, his lips touching mine. I want to feel safe and he seems to be the only one that can make me feel that way. I love him. I feel it deep in my heart. I want to be with him forever, and have his children, get married and live happy lives together. Hope this isn't super creepy....

6 more days!!! yay!

Science

Doing a project in Science about the distances and features of the Planets in our Solar System. It;s colorful and pretty. : ) It's finally Friday and we are having a DUD day. We pretty much just get to break whichever rules are chosen for that friday. Today was Hat and Flip-Flop day. Lots of fun. : )

Yay! & More Days Until Summer and two of those are the Weekend!!!!!

Lot of Time Today

Today I have had a lot of opportunities to blog. Right now I'm sitting in writing listening to my obese teacher try to explain how bad of a teacher she is. Talking as if we are in Pre-K. Wake-Up Call: WE ARE BIG PEOPLE! WE ARE SMARTER THAN YOU THINK! Fortunately, I go to a school that has one of the highest rating PAWS scores in the USof A : ) So, just saying, doesn't that prove that we have been paying attention and our teasing is us saying that we are learning but we are tired of it. Haha : ) Got to go! My make-up homework calls!

In Algebra

I hate Algebra. Not because I don't understand it, because I do. But when I don't want to do something, I don't. So all the homework that we have I end up stuffing into my binder and then losing it for all eternity. Then my grades suck...and it causes feelings of hate to being developing. My teacher is totally awesome though, crazy and fun. He explains everything in easy understandable ways....but the homework...ugh. And as I sit here and do a corrective for my formative which I totally bombed, I realized that I WANT to do good. I want people to look at me and see a beautiful, smart, and sophisticated girl. Hmmm....

Still 8 agonizing days of school left....then I'm free : )

8 More days!

Summer is so close! I can almost taste the fruity popsicles, delicious ice cream, the cold drinks. Can't wait to feel the sun warming my skin. However, I think the best part is NO SCHOOL! I sware I am so sick of drama! : ) No doubt there is going to be End of the Year Drama probably starting either tomorrow or on Monday. Can't wait. : ) I always end up in the middle of all the fights, I like defending and protecting. This summer is going to be filled with sun, friends, hanging at the pools, new paintings!!!!, new books!, and hopefully my totally amazing Boyfriend. : ) I know for a fact that I'm probably going to be spending lots of time shacked up at either my Grandma Marlene's house, my house, or My Grandma Cookie's house. And although that sounds lame and boring, they are actually the coolest. I mean doesn't everyone wish that their grandparents would ride motorcycles and dirtbikes and do enduros? Well I got it. : ) I love my family...well mostly. : ) So today is Thursday May 20, 2010 and I only have 8 more days until Summer!!!