Saturday

Today is Saturday. An hour till Sunday. And I'm sad, lonely, in pain, and depressed. How did this happen? Only 5 minutes ago I was totally happy and everything! I hate this! And like everytime I'm happy my parents like strive to find something intimidating against me! It sucks : ( I hate this I hate life...Lord help me please. How are all y'all people out there? Anyone better than me? Hopefully... Well I'll probably stop blogging once school starts cuz after al this is my Summer blog. However, If I get emails telling me people want me to continue blogging I will. though I doubt that will happen. Anyways I'm tired. I need to go pray and finish catching up on my forgotten bible Verse studies. Everybody please prayt onight. Not only for yourselves and your family but for everyone in the world. To make the bad people better and to help everyone. In Mathew in the the bible it states that Jesus fixed a blind man's eyes. It's amazing and I believe it one hundred percent. And sorry if my bible names are wrong it may hove been in John, honestly Im kind of recently starting to get into the Bible. I've always believed though. Thank you to my Grandma, Grandpa, and great Grandmother. They all mean the World to me. And everyone please pray for the people who aren't as fortunate as you and thank the Lord for what he has given you.

I always end my prayers with "In God's name I pray, Amen." Although for some people that wont exactly work. I know there is a vast array of religions out there...Maybe you could share what you pray for. And how you end your prayers. And hey if you need something to be prayed for Please comment and we will all pray for you! Hope everyone is okay and you are all in my prayers!


Miss. Slim, Mrs. Beast, Kenz, Kenzie, Skitz, Mac, Mckenz, McKenzie, Babygurl...whatever It is you call me ; ) Night! xoxoxoxoxo

WoW I do believe it is July 28, Wednesday : )

Awesome day today! Most amazing ever! I'm sooo psyched!!!! Yay! You can't even believe how happy i am! Tell you later! Got to go Mom's is kicking me off! later!

Family...

Okay so my family is huge and messed up here ya go...

<>= married ()=title name=name= their children

Rick(grandpa) = Mary Ruth, Terry Lynn, and Shannon

Mary Ruth=JT, Brittany, Timmy
Terry Lynn=Brandon
Shannon=Lyndsey, Kylee, Gage

Rick Marlene+(idk him)= Julie and Jill

Julie=Peyton,Jordan*, Morgan*, Mackayla*, Sean, Casey, Skylar, Jada*, Hailey**
*~Not Bill's, **~ Not Julie's

Jill=Me(Kenzie), Harley

Rick is an alchohalich that screams alot yet loves more than anone in the world and a great buisness man
Pam is someone that I don't know very well
Marlene is sweet and kind and gentle. She's capable and funny. Smart and beautiful even in her age. Dealing with alot of stress from Rick
Mary Ruth is a drug head. Doesn't care about her children or anyone but herself. Has officially been disowned from are family. SHe brought a drunk man home and put him in the same room as me. Didn't end well... Her first husband Jimmy is the best guy in the world.
Terry Lynn is confused and would rather have her head stuck up in a fairy tail then into reality. She's married to Tommy and he is a nice man that is also a firefighter.
Shannon is the best of them all.She has recently gone through the horrors of a divorce but is funny and loves life. She tries to make the best for her kids; they mean everything to her.
Julie is a good person. Although she has 10 kids and can't control them very well she is a good mom and very sensitive and sweet. She is currently going through a stage that has to be horrible because Rick refuses to let her into his house or any of her kids other than Jordan. SHe is married to Bill who I don't really know all that well. But he seems nice enough and like a good Dad other than being a push over towards his whiny daughter Hailey.
Jill is my mommy and is funny just like Shannon. They are alot alike. But if you get on Mom's bad side you are in for trouble. She is a dispatcher at the police department and is without a doubt very over-protective. Steve who is my Daddy is manager at a motorcycle shop and is also funny and mean if need be. Don't mess with his Kids and you'll be fine. Also he veiws life in a way that most poeple should. He's Independent and smart. Maybe not book smart in anything other than Math and science but deffinetly street smart. He tries to displace himself from Drama.
Now the Kids. JT is cool. He does drugs but is a nice guy.
Brittany is no one that I would like to talk to ever again. There used to be a time when she cared about me but her mother haschanged her. She's emo and taught me to cut myself.
Timmy is a little kid that I don't really know. From what I have witnessed he is agressive and one of the Bullies.
Brandon is a child molester. He molested both me and my cousin. So I don't give a crap about him. He is in a group home for trying to kill his mom and dad.
Lyndsey is one of my best friends. She's talented in everything she tries and knows how to pick the right people as friends. Although she can be lazy.
Kylee is the most adorable blue-eyed blonde you have ever met. She talks already like a pro and is so funny! She loves everyone and I'll kill the first person that ever hurts her.
Gage is my little sweetheart. He's the cutest and best darn baby in the World. And he has me wrapped around all his little fingers.
Jordan is smy best friend. He's funny and understands. He's protective over me and I love him a lot. Unfortunately he has ADD which to me is a load of bull poopoo. So he is currently sent away from his home to live in a group home.He's the best guy you'll ever meet.
Peyton is cute and sweet.
Skylar and Cassie are crazy tyrants. They have no discipline and lie to no extent. but they are cute and loving.
Hailey is a brat. if she doesnt get what she wants she cries to her daddy. Always tries to get me and Lynz in trouble. Don't like her very much.
ODnt know any of her other kids.


Now on my Daddy's side there is:

Papa Harley=Daddy and Uncle Rick
Daddy= Me and Harley

Uncle Rick=Alpine

Uncle rick is an amazing cop and is quickly succeeding in his job.
Aunt Misty is funny and nice.
Alpine is my little cousin and is funny and really smart.


So there ya have it! My family...

My weird random post # 3

Up for some more fun???

Woo hoo! This is awesome! How bout an excerpt from my book?? Okay! If you insist!!! hahaha

" 'Oh no you don't!' Ashley said as she caught the little boys shirt before he ran off to play. 'Clean your room first, please!' 'Yes Mommy' he replied with his head hung. mommy? he said mommy. Wow, feelings of joy spread through her body like lightning"

finish later! Night~!

Me being Weird and Random post # 2 : )

Okay so Random Words that pop into my head!

Popcorn
hot dog
lollipop
shower
toilet
Television
stairs
Dog
Game
boy
love
hate
hair
table
you
me
bathroom
bed
him
harley
let
see
enjoy
bet
lost
toy
fun


hahaha I have a lot more but I dont want to bore you now im going to add something to the end...

Popcorn party
hotdog toy
lollipop lick
shower amazing
toilet fell in
television loud
stairs carpeted
Dog bath
Game show
Boy sexy
love Sem Sem
hate you
hair gorgeous
table cards
you hot
me the best
bathroom later
bed sleep
him mine
Harley brother
let nope
see me
enjoy life
bet money
lost help me
toy truck
fun only with me!

hehehe have fun!

My being weird and Random post # 1 : )

Okay so to start the night off I will begin with a song..just kidding. I'll start by sharing some of my texts! : )



ABBY:Me too
ME: Yeah the movie was fun but I'm pooped!
((txt from Brayden)

BRAYDEN:nawhhh
ME: Good cuz everyone else is sleeping and im bored!
((Txt from Brayden)

BRAYDEN:haha
ME: Aaq PLEASE!!! I'm about to die from boredom!
(txt from Abby)

ABBY:Ya me too lol but im still going to read i was just on FB thanking people for Happy bdays lol
ME: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
(txt from Brayden)

BRAYDEN:u aaq:)
ME:hmmm....ok....how many books have you read in your entire life???
(txt from Abby)

ABBY:Xoxoxoxoxo but u already said it last night at 12:03 and woke me up
ME: sorry : )
(txt from Brayden)
BRAYDEN: F*** like 5. hahah u?
ME: too many to count hahaha

(txt from Abby)

ABBY:No Biggy
ME: You really think Im skinny?? lol jk jk

(txt from Abby)

ABBY:Duh
ME:hehe
(txt from Brayden)

BRAYDEN:gay
ME:wow u r? no wonder u dont like me anymore...
(txt from Abby)

ABBY:Serious
ME:what??

Okay so that is it! hahaha well a little peice of my life : ) enjoy!

Just got back from the movies : )

Went to the movies to see the Sorcerer's Apprentice with my friend Abby. It was way cool. I got a headache but that's from the extreme measures of awesome that the movie reached. : ) hahaha It was tight. I miss hanging out with my friends. I used to go out like every weekend. Blew about a hundred bucks a month : ) Yaya! Miss those days. But now I'm being more responsible and decide once a month is good enough for me... : ( Doing the right thing is boring..hahaha I've decided that when I get older I'm going to be mega bucks rich! I'm going to go out every DAY!!! Yaya! I'm feeling really flirty tonight. But then again I always do when I go out. That's why I get into so much trouble with boys : ) hehehe... Anyways Im in a bloggin mood so i'm just going to blog randm stuff until i feel tired : ) Make up for all the lost time ; ) Okay so here we go:

Just Lose It~ Eminem

My favorite song in the whole wide world! Here's the lyrics so you can celebrate in amazingness with me : ) hahahaha

Just Lose it

Down Down Down, Down down Down, down down down

Ok...
Guess Who's back?
Back again?
Shady's back!
Tell a friend.
Whaaaaaa...

Now everyone report to the dance floor.
To the dance floor, to the dance floor.
Now everyone report to the dance floor.
Alright stop! pajama time!

Come here little kiddies on my lap!
Guess whos back with a brand new rap
and I dont mean rap a in a new case of child melestates and accusates.
ah ah ah ah ah ah
No worries pappas got a brand new bag of toys
what else could i possibly do to make noise?
I done touched on everything but little boys.
Thats not a stab at michael thats just a metaphor.
Im just psycho, I go a little bit crazy sometimes.
I get a little bit out of control with my rhymes.
Good God, dip, do a little slide
Bend down, touch your toes, and just glide
To the center of the dance floor
Like TP for my bung hole and it's cool if you let one go

Nobody's gonna know, who'd hear it?
Give a little poot poot, it's okay
Oops my CD just skipped
And everyone just heard you let one rip

Now I'm gonna make you dance, it's your chance
Yeah boy, shake that ass, whoops I mean girl, girl, girl, girl
Girl you know you're my world, alright now lose it
(Ah ah ah ah ah)
Just lose it
(Ah ah ah ah ah)
Go crazy
(Ah ah ah ah ah)
Oh baby
(Ah ah)
Oh baby
(Ah ah)

It's Friday and it's my day
Used to party all the way to Sunday
Maybe 'til Monday, I don't know what day
Everyday's just a holiday
Cruisin' on the freeway, feelin' kind of breezy
Let the top down and my hair blow
I don't know where I'm goin', all I know
Is when I get there someone's gonna touch my body

Excuse me miss, I don't mean to sound like a jerk
But I'm feelin' just a little stressed out from work
Would you punch me in the stomach and pull my hair?
Spit on me, maybe gouge my eyes out, yeah
Now what's ya name girl, what's ya sign?
Man you must be up out yo mind
Dre, ah, ah, beer goggles, blind
I'm just tryin' to unwind, now I'm

Now I'm gonna make you dance, it's your chance
Yeah boy, shake that ass, whoops I mean girl, girl girl girl
Girl you know you're my world, alright now lose it
(Ah ah ah ah ah)
Just lose it
(Ah ah ah ah ah)
Go crazy
(Ah ah ah ah ah)
Oh baby
(Ah ah)
Oh baby (ah ah)

It's Tuesday and I'm locked up
I'm in jail and I don't know what happened
They say I was runnin' butt naked
Down the street screamin' "Ah ah ah ah"
Well I'm sorry, I don't remember
All I know is this much, I'm not guilty
They said. "Save it, boy we got you on tape
Yellin' at an old lady touch my body"

Now this is the part where the rap breaks down
It's real intense, no one makes a sound
Everything looks like it's '8 Mile' now
The beat comes back and everybody lose themselves
Now snap back to reality, look it's B. Rabbit
Oh you signed me up to battle? I'm a grown man
Tubba tubba tubba tubba tubba tubba tubba
I don't have any lines to go right here so tubba

Tellytubby fellas, what, fellas, what
Grab your left nut, make your right one jealous what
Black girls, white girls, skinny girls, fat girls
Tall girls, small girls, I'm callin' all girls
Everyone report to the dance floor
It's your chance for a little romance or butt squeezin'
It's the season, just go ah ah ah ah, it's so appeasin'

Now I'm gonna make you dance, it's your chance
Yeah boy, shake that ass, whoops I mean girl, girl girl girl
Girl you know you're my world, alright now lose it
(Ah ah ah ah ah)
Just lose it
(Ah ah ah ah ah)
Go crazy
(Ah ah ah ah ah)
Oh baby
(Ah ah)
Oh baby, baby
(Ah ah)

Touch my body, touch my body
Oh boy just touch my body, I mean girl just touch my body

Monday...The 26th of July

Today started out good, I woke up at 10 am after going to sleep at 3 am. Daddy had homemade waffles ready. After we ate we went grocery shopping, then came home so Harley could go spend the night at his friends house. After he left we went and got all of our school supplies. It took me an hour to get mine and Harley's stuff all sorted out and ready to be taken to school. i had to sharpen 60 pencils for him. Ugh it was horrible. : ) But I texted my friends the whole time : ) Then I read an email I got.... and I just had this feeling that it wasnt right. That something was wrong with what was going on. Maybe he was lying or maybe I messed up destiny when I waltzed into his life. But all I know now is that I'm never going to see him, at least not for four years. And what if he finally decides that I'm not who he thought I was????? What if he meets me in 4 years and all of a sudden he's like "What was I thinking I don't like her worth a darn. She's not at all who I thought she would be. Wow big mistake." I know that I love him and I just don't want to disappoint him. i'm scared of him yet I can't breath without knowing that if I need him alls I have to do is Email him and He'll help me to the best of his ability. So why am i pushing him away??? Wow. Epiphany...I need to let him decide and I'm just being self concious. See I told you blogging helps me ; )

So SemSem....

I'm sorry I said what I did to you on that last email. I want you to know that I love you. I don't know why and I don't know how it happened, but I really think I do love you. And I am sorry about that thing that happened with that girl. I have no idea why she would ever do that to you because you are an amazing guy and anyone would be lucky to have and i'm happy that I do. Or at least I think I do. You keep saying I'm all yours. And I am. Forever. This is the reason that everytime I talk to another guy I don't feel anything like attraction. or when a guy i have liked for years finally asks me out I say no because all of a sudden I don't want to date any guy but you. And when i was going out with Jacob I knew there was something wrong. i actually called him by your name once. Well that's how I feel. So yeah : )


Love Always to everyone...

Miss. Slim

Good Golly Miss.Moly....

It's been ages since I hae blogged. It's one of those things that I enjoy and totally missed while I wasn't working on it! So I was thinking about adding some excerpts from my book that I'm writing... What do you think? I think it would be a good way for me to be critiqued and get to show off. hahaha...just kidding. Well I finally got my cell phone back! Yay! i'm missing someone so much right now that I just want to break down on my bed and cry for days. I feel lonely lately....I mean I have friends and I hang out a lot and I try doing fun things. i'm on the phone 24/7 and now texting a lot too. So why am i so empty?? I mean I know it isn't because of Jacob...I mean I did love him but i think that it might have just been me wishing I was in love....And now, well actually for about a year now i've been falling in love with another guy..and all I think about is him mostly....but he's too far away, both physically and maybe even mentally....I have no clue if I am making any sense right now but I don't care. I hate being a teenager! It sucks! It's all too confusing..School starts again in a couple of weeks...boo. I'm not ready for that kind of drama.....Lord help me....Oh yeah and now I have this ex-boyfriend Zach telling me he still loves and always has ..and then he asked me if I would mind if he had sex with another girl I mean WTF!!!! really??? Well I got to go : ( I ll talk to yall later ; (


Love always...
Miss. Slim......