To Jacob

So Jake, I know you used to read this blog even though I begged you not to. :\ I know we went out for like almost 4 months and you loved me. I also know that it was wrong of me to just cut it off, but I want you to know that It seriously had nothing to do with you and it seriously was me... I don't know how to tell you and you won't ever talk to me anymore because I broke your heart. I'm so sorry that I ever hurt you like that. To the point where you thought about committing suicide. Something was happening with me that was confusing and every time you talked about sex it made me so uncomfortable. I told you again and again yet would you listen?? Maybe for a week and then you went right back to it... I hate you for that, you know. I wasn't done healing from what had happened! But you didn't care! I don't know why I'm saying sorry when all you ever did was hurt me but I'm the kind of person that hurts with others, I guess. I really wish we could have lasted longer then maybe I could have told you the truth. You disgust me, and I think it might be partly your fault that I am this way now. I know about the party and I know how it happened so long ago before I even met you but I think I would have been fine if you two hadn't pushed me over the edge. And now I'm floating in abyss of hate for men in general. My girlfriend, Jenny, Is amazing and she loves me as I love her. She's here for me and I'm there for her. We are going to last forever and you can suck it.

That's all I wanted you to know was that I'm lez and that's why it didn't work out, sorry.

Love Always and Forever,
Kenzi <3